No Facebook post or page on a website could ever allow me to describe what I am about to put into words and images. This post has been something in the making for years that I am finally able to dig deep enough and get out of me. Something that runs deep in my core. Something that my clients can see when they are watching me with their little bundle of joy.. This post isn't about a certain client in particular, or what new and exciting things are happening behind the scenes, it is about my WHY. It is about my raw feelings of WHY I love what I do. And honestly, there are a multitude of different reasons, but I will jump to the main one first.
Why do I love what I do?
Because not everyone gets to experience being a parent and all of it's joys and heartaches. Some couples struggle with infertility and pregnancy loss and while it is common, it doesn't take the pain away. I do what I do for the couples who have struggled but kept trying and in that one instance that ONE TIME they took that one pregnancy test, after years of negatives they get the test that tells them there is hope. For them, I want to freeze time, I want them to always have something to look back on to remember what it was like to BE pregnant, to BE so enthralled in the newness of life and take them back to a time when they had never felt their hearts so full of love than when they looked at their less than a week old baby and and were just so amazed that God chose them to be their little ones parents. And when they see their baby's images up on their wall or in that coffee table album they smile, Because, they remember.
Even Deeper Than That...
I do it because just over a year ago my Husband and I were expecting our 4th child, and God had other plans, because the only image I have of my baby are two sonograms that hurt so badly to even look at. Because these feelings and emotions are still so raw to this day, and because I want my clients to have more than a sonogram, more than the standard hospital "photographer" who visits every patient rooms and delivers the exact same thing to everyone. I want with my whole heart to give them images that will forever touch their heart. Images that are displayed proudly in their family room, in their child's nursery. Or in a beautiful album Because I never had the chance and I WISH I had them of my little one.
Because Time Passes Quickly
I do this for the new parents who do not realize children grow bigger every second and you won't realize it until it is too late, People truly do not realize how much a newborn's facial features can change over the course of a week. Seeing their cute little smushy face take the shape to favor their Mother or Father is truly astonishing.
I do it because the vulnerable, innocence of a newborn is so heartwarming to me. Because while I could say that parenthood is all sunshine and rainbows. Sometimes it is overcast with afternoon thunderstorms. It is then, in that precise moment, I want you to look at your baby's images and be transported back to a time when it was all new. And remember the love you felt holding your tiny baby that fit so perfectly in your arms. Remembering, that they depended on you hand and foot for everything, who needed you more than anything in the world. Who knew their safe haven was in your arms. And while they were put into a world that they knew NOTHING ABOUT, they knew YOU. a certain quote pops into my head when I think of this,
"I am you; you are me, you are the waves; I am the ocean. Know this and be free, be divine."- Sri Sathya Sai Bab
Because when your child is about to hit their 5th birthday and you can't believe that time has flown by that fast and you wish it would just stop moving forward..... I do it for you.